is this happiness, i asked

i think i might love you, i said.
all out loud.
unexpectedly.
i didn’t mean to say it,
it just sort of slipped out.
i think you might be the love of my life,
i just had to continue.
(stop talking now)

i’m sorry, i said.
i always keep messing things up.
i feel like the elephant in
the fancy glass store.
(no, really, stop now)

it’s true.
i think way too much, i said.
apologetic.
then i looked down again.
the ground was sandy.
the beach usually is.

to have your full attention.
i can’t imagine anything better.
but you are flirting
with the whole world.
(that was not a compliment)

i’ve said too much.
too fast.
i will regret it.
note to self
never be so honest.
it hurts.
(then you kissed me)